long time not coming..haha..

tonight at this moment i feel so unfair...
i just want to get treated as the same way others were..maybe he is indeed yeah more cute than me good looking than me..but like all others did? i just want you too care more about me..

im now a working person..having my own salary.. this year new year i bought ALL the new year with my own money.. but i don't know why i don't feel happy eventhough all those shirts were my favourite..

and all the things i had? i must share..i just don't feel good about it..

now i don't wanna be mature, i don't wanna be strong, i don't wanna be independent.. i just wanna be cared or sayang..... i want it :'(